Guys, my sanity has been gradually unraveling. It has a lot to do with not sleeping for the past 17 months.
So I had a mental health day.
(Which means I spent the majority of the day with no kids.)
For you moms who haven’t had a childless day in 5 years, let me tell you what I did, so you can live vicariously through me.
First, I took a shower. No one interrupted. (I did have to break up a small fight between the big kids at the end, but who’s being picky?)
Next, I met my husband for lunch. No one tried to grab my plate and send it crashing to the floor. No one whined for bites of my food. No one interrupted our conversation. We actually sat in the bar area at a table with tall chairs, because we didn’t even need a highchair.
We ran an errand together, where we both got out of the car and walked right into the store. Neither of us stayed behind with whiny small people. We didn’t have to bring car seats or unstrap toddler seat-belts. We just got out of the car and walked in.
After Chris went back to work, things got really interesting.
I went swimsuit shopping.
Guys. I have no words for this experience. Is there anything more demoralizing to womankind?
OK, yes. I found out how to make it worse: I had a gift certificate to a store geared towards 15 year old girls who weigh 90 lbs. And I went there. For a swimsuit.
Just don’t EVER do that.
Apparently everything about me is wrong. Even my torso is too long. How can your torso be too long for stretchy Lycra? And half of me is one size and the other half is the next size up. Not the preferred halves. DRAT YOU, PEAR SHAPE!
I shook the dust off of my feet and went to the store beloved by all moms: Target.
It was still bad-ish, but manageable. And the lighting was more flattering, which helped a lot.
But, did you know Target only lets you take 6 items into the dressing room? I need way more than 6 tries to find a suit that covers all my important bits, without making me look 75 years old. And since it was the coldest day in the history of everything, I had about 5 layers on. After a few times of undressing and redressing, I was really tempted to wrap my coat around my almost naked, too-long torso to pick out the next suits to try.
Eventually I selected the least offensive option, and then I walked in the makeup aisles. Just because I could. No one grabbed the nail polishes. No one begged for Bonnie Bell (actually, do they still make that? I can’t keep up.) No one moaned about how bored they were.
I didn’t buy any makeup. It was enough to be able to look at my leisure. I did grab some “feminine products” that were on clearance, because this was my exciting day out.
After purchasing my swimsuit and girl stuff, I went to the in-store Starbucks (which we un-affectionatley call “Tarbucks.”) I ordered an awful Americano and sat at one of the 3 tables, reading Facebook and listening to other people’s kids have meltdowns. Because, you KNOW I wasn’t going to go home until I had to.
Finally my personal day came to a close and I drove home to my children.
And you know what? My babies are beautiful!!!
Phoebe is so sweet and smiley and adorably chubby. Enoch is hilarious with all of his cute antics. Leah is full of imagination and wonder. Isaiah is creative and constantly strategizing genius things to do.
I just needed to be away from them to really appreciate them.